Cranky Pants

I think my reign of optimism is waning. I've had a really hard time this week sticking with my uber positive outlook. I did not bring up the new kid issue to my colleagues because I really don't care that I got him (and he seems sweet), I just don't like the games. Just be upfront and say "hey Sunny, didn't you just say you lost Kid A? Would you mind if I asked them to switch Kid B to you so we'll all stay at 27?" I wouldn't have cared. To go behind people's backs and then piss off the secretary is just not cool.

But Mrs. Secretary who I adore, sent the people involved an email that basically said she put this child in the other room because when they enrolled, we all had 27 (my other kiddo hadn't been officially dropped yet) and it wasn't my turn to get a new kid since I got the last one. Then the other teacher involved backtracked and sent an email apologizing and whatnot. I don't know. Maybe I'm a bitch. I just don't like playing these kind of games. I don't have time for it. And Mrs. Secretary was offended because she felt like the others thought she didn't know how to do her job. Rule #1 of working in a school, do not piss off the secretary.

Yesterday and today were crazy! I don't think the kids ever recovered from the big field trip. Teaching is such a solitary thing and I often question if *I* have lost my touch that day....then I talk to  my colleagues and realize it is definitely not just me or my class. Today my colleague right next door and I were chatting after school and she put it best -- they were just downright naughty today. And they were. I get that they're excited and I know having a rainy day in December (what the heck Mother Nature?!) doesn't help but man! I have been trying really hard to stay on track with my SSR conferences since I know they are going to be hounding us about them come January. The kids think if I am sitting at the circle table with a child it means they can talk instead of work and it is soooo frustrating! Today was our 68th day of school. It isn't like they don't know what I expect. *head desk* I feel like I'm being a jerk but they know how to do it correctly because they've done it! 

It's the Christmas crazies! It has just made me feel cranky and that stinks. I don't like being cranky. Plus I am upset that I am, yet again, without any real help and the same people get the help. It's so wrong and unfair. Bah humbug! 

That said, I will try to be positive tomorrow. It's a new day, a fresh start and I have a prep first thing which is nice. I stayed after a bit today and did a bunch of filing and sorting that I have been putting off forever. It feels nice to know that is out of the way and one less thing I need to do later. I feel ready to go in early tomorrow, get copying and whatnot all set for the week after break and then get through these last two crazy days!