Procrastinator

I don't know how I ever finish anything. I mean seriously. I procrastinate SO much. It's probably an illness!

Yesterday I had the day off to work on NB. And I did. A little. But I also did some creative writing. And was astounded that while I have been dragging my heels with NB lately, I was able to produce about 4600 words of text yesterday in about 2 hours when I simply chose to write for myself.

Writing is very cathartic for me. Words are powerful. I have always loved words. I'm sure that's why I'm such a voracious reader. Words can bring you joy, sadness, hurt and more. And finally writing everything down that has been going through my head is the cheapest therapy I've ever had, that's for sure. It was quite amazing to check the word counter in my Scrivener program to see how much I had actually written in such a short time. (When I was doing NaNoWriMo in November, getting those 1700 words a day was often torture and I wrote 3 days worth in 2 hours yesterday!)

I guess I had some things I needed to get out. I am writing it like it is going to be published. I don't know that I will ever actually publish it or not, but I'm writing it with that end in mind. We shall see if I ever get the nerve to do anything with those words. There are happy words, fun words, sad words and angry words. And a lot more angry words to come if/when I keep writing. That's why I just don't know what I will do with the end result. It may just end up one huge rant. No one wants to read that. But the words need to be said. Even if they are never shared.

My goal for today, no matter what, is to finish my E1 since I didn't do as much as I should have yesterday. We did watch some Harry Potter last night as I promised myself I would do. It's so hard for me to sit in front of the TV though because I never do it. Later today we are going to watch more HP and relax. I have so much to catch up on from school also and my house is a mess. I need a maid! I am going to work hard to balance NB, the stuff I need to catch up on from school, relaxing and trying to pick up around my house so it feels like we're not living in a sty (I mean, it's not that bad but it's driving me crazy).